For many years, I searched for answers as to why my health had disappeared in a matter of moments. My first diagnosis was in 2012 when I was in the ICU on my death bed due to a failed pancreas from a viral infection. At the age of 21 I was diagnosed with a life altering disease, Type One Diabetes. From then on, organ after organ began to go into acute failures and I became bed ridden. I had visited over 20 specialists in California to find what was killing me, and not one of them had the answer. Doctor after doctor shrugged their shoulders telling me it was anxiety and that I needed to take medication to fix the problem. Well this was not the case. After years of praying to God for direction, I began to search elsewhere to find my healing. I found an alternative doctor who immediately ran tests on me and diagnosed me with Lyme Disease. This diagnosis was a game changer. I started Lyme treatment immediately in 2014 and from the moment I began that first herx, my entire life fell apart. My former best friends had decided to move forward and not talk to me anymore, my boyfriend of four years was checking out of the relationship, my grandmother who helped raise me with my mother tragically passed away, and I became bed ridden sick from treatment that I had to stop school and go from working full time to part time. My life was completely flipped upside down. I felt as though I was drowning in a black hole, never to find the light again. I became depressed and alone. I gained the patient victim mentality, where nothing was my fault and I just had bad luck. This negative mind set and heart set landed me in a place called, rock bottom.
It wasn’t until I woke up one day realizing my life was completely shattered, my relationships were completely shattered and my spiritual identity was lost, that I had to make a change. I broke down and surrendered every problem, discouragement, broken piece of my heart before God in hopes that he would hear my cry and rescue me from the depths of suffering. At that moment, I felt like God touched my heart and filled me with a greater sense of confidence in who he is and his goodness. From that moment on, as I pursued God more and more, I began to heal. My life began to transform, piece by piece. Each area was beginning to become redeemed and restored through his grace and love. I’ve spent the past 3 years dedicated to transforming my life inside and out, and it has been the most rewarding journey and gift that I have ever received.